As many of you know, I'm about 2 weeks into my month of no sugar and to top that off, I'm on day 5 of a whole body detox. What can I say? I'm a glutton for punishment.
Add to that this nice rainy weather we're having (no really, I love rain) that makes my chronic pain worse and I have a terrific cocktail of aches and pains.
Not that I'm complaining...I'm just explaining why I'm in bed. :-)
You may be wondering how this no sugar month is going and I'd have to say pretty good. Last year, I often felt like I was doing something I should be doing but it didn't sick because I wasn't as committed. It didn't take long for my whole family to go back to eating cookies and drinking sodas.
But this year feels different somehow. I really feel on board with this decision to go without sugar. I've been doing a lot of research; watching loads of videos and documentaries. That helps my resolve quite a bit.
But I'll be honest. The main reason I'm wholeheartedly ready to give up refined sugar is because I'm sick of feeling sick. I know some of you know how I'm feeling because you tell me how bad you feel, how run down you get. I'm learning there are a lot of factors that play into chronic pain and everyone is different. But no matter who you are, refined sugar and HFCS is just bad. It may affect your body differently than mine and you may not see or feel problems until down the road, but trust me...they will be there. It's just that toxic.
I don't get the luxury of delayed illness. My body has issues now. I am 24. Twenty-four, people. And I have chronic pain. It's ridiculous. Some things I have no control over, like pollution and loads of toxins and chemicals I come into contact with every day. But there is a HUGE portion I have control over. I have control over what I eat and drink. I have control over what medicines and supplements I choose to take. I have control over how much sleep I can try to get (although not always how well I sleep). I have control over how much exercise and stretching I do. At the end of the day I can't sit back and say I'm overweight (I am) and sick (I am) because I just ended up that way. I have made choices that have lead me to where I am now. And now I am going to have to make even harder choices to get back to where I need to be. Choices like giving up refined sugar....
Right now, my body doesn't feel to good. Sometimes we have to walk through some mud before we get back on the beaten path. It doesn't 'feel' good to deny my body something it's addicted to and craves. It doesn't feel good to purge my body of nasty toxins. It doesn't feel good to swallow 10 pills every night for my detox. I hate swallowing pills. I'll do it anyway because it will make me better. My body isn't going to like stretching at first. It's going to be hard to push through chronic pain. But it will get better.
Sometimes discipline isn't fun and doesn't feel good right away...but it ALWAYS pays off. I always feel better in the long run.
Sometimes I don't get a cozy feeling and think, "I'm so glad I did this." Sometimes I'm just mad. I throw fits too when I have to do something I don't like. I need a huge poster that says...GET OVER IT AND BE A BIG GIRL. That's what being healthy is about for me. Right now, I need to get over it and do what I know is necessary.
Maybe down the road being healthy will look like new running shoes, skinny jeans and energy in the morning (without coffee). Maybe it will be actually having the energy to get in the floor and play with my boys without asking them to be 'easy cuz mommy has fibro'. Maybe healthy will look like forgetting I ever had chronic pain. Maybe...
But I've got some work to get there. And I'm ready to do what it takes. Are you?
My family is my anti-sugar